In all honesty.

I'm extremely anxious about something & That's all I can say about that.

If you know, you know, if you don't you never will.

Gahhhhh.

***

On a brighter note! I am loving my crafty little self.

 Snowflake Craft I just started tonight.

2 Snowmen done of 6. I love them.

Yesterday I had a fantastic day! I hung out with two long lost sorority sistas and very good friends. My friend L. and I traveled an hour to see a dear friend in a neaby city. We attended a Remembrance Day Ceremony that was PACKED. It was awesome, we couldn't even sit down. Being a military fiance it made me so proud of him and to be in this crazy military life. <3 He he.

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This weekend I'll be going out to my Mommy' house. She is my hairdresser and I'm in dire need.

It'll also be early Christmas on my Dad's side, since my Nan goes to Florida for the next 6ish months. So I'm pretty pumped.

It's 1:12 am. I should really go to bed. This is what happens when Mr. M goes to the field. He is there till next Thursday. So only a few more days. :)

Do you like the new look?

Button coming soon.

Goodnight Bloggers,

Tmo



It's officially my Birthdayyyy

I am turning twenty-two. Which is so weird to me. I feel old, but I also feel so young. Ha ha. Stuck in the middle I suppose. My status on facebook currently says: Well, hello there 22. Twenty-one brought me: Deployment, rockclimbing, Christmas happiness, Scuba cert., moving in together, new kitty, Jamaica, new friends, old friends & concert, photoshoots, an engagment, and so many memories! So go ahead 22, surprise me. ♥

I'm so excited for 22. I imagine it'll be amazing and full of more lessons and memories... So many. I have definitely learned my fair share of things this year. Done a lot of growing up. Here are some things I'll share:

*You have to stay true to yourself, no matter what people may think.
*Not everyone likes you, and that's ok.
*Your true friends are always going to be there, no matter what.

*When in doubt, overdress.
*Wine is always a good option and Vodka Rockstars.

*You will inevatibly stay up till 4 in the morning if you drink said Rockstar.

*If someone loves you enough, everything will eventully be ok. If not better than before.
*Blogging is harder than I thought.

I have been actually having a great time while Mr. M has been mia. Went to my Aunt's wedding friday night then made a random decision to go to a Lady Gaga themed party with my sorority. I had an amazing time and ended up going out the next night as well. Which is different from my current lifestyle. I like it every now and then though.

Tomorrow I am going to kareoke night with a good friend of mine. I am so glad that I'm actually doing something for my birthday. I did have plans ith Mr. M, but he's helping out in Newfounland (hurricane Igor).

o00o0o, guess what? Remember when I took pole dancing classes? Well, my instructor is moving to Toronto so she is selling off her amazng poles for half price! I am getting one. I am so pumped because it is such a great workout! Let you know more later!

Can't wait to dance and sing tomorrow night!

(Thank you to myself, clearly not as classy as my idol.)

(thank you google images)

Ok, time to hit the hay. <3
Happy Birthday to me!

Love,

Tmo

NEED SLUMBER

He comes home in 24 FRIGGEN HOURS!

This is totally me right now.
(At least it would be if I were in an empty field of dandilions right now, oh...and I looked like her.)

I kicked tour's ass. I rock. I am strong. I am ... Wonderwoman.

(Well, kind of...in spirit. I sadly have no super powers. Except for my power of awesomeness, no big.)

BEDTIME.

Love,

Tmo

Breath in, breath out, breath i - OMG a fridge!!

I have a happy post now. I own a fridge! Going to pick it up on the 30th, for 200.00, down from 250.00. I haggled damnit. I am wonderwoman. Also, Checkout Dive this weekend! Oh hell yes, I feel good about myself again. I will go from this:

To this:

I am pumped, to say the least.

Going wayyyy back to this post in which I write out a list of things I want to accomplish while he is gone. Here it is -

The Deployment List

-Excersise, feel good about my body again *Check, getting back into it in May fulltime.

-Get back into scrapbooking * Only a little, there is no room in people's places, I feel in the way when I do.

-Friends! * Check! Jo's on weekends, still staying in touch with others!

-Try rockclimbing! * Check, got my lead course in it.

-Journal -so I don't go crazy. * Check, almost every night.

-Focus on the light at the end of the tunnel - Him being back, living together, and this (hopefully)not happening again. * Check, it's s close.

-Care packages for my babe! * Only one :( I hope it gets to him on time!!

I did all that, but I also did:

-Scuba Dive Course

-Pole Dancing classes

-Made memories with friends

-Gained some close friendships, some best friends that I hope to surround myself with aways, in some way!

-Began part time modeling

-Went to see an old Bff and a concert of a band I love.

-2 Bacheloette parties!

-Visited my family

-Celebrated mine and Mr. M's 3 year anniversary of being boyfriend and girlfriend.

-Had many breakfasts at our local fav

-Spent many weekends with two of my favs

-Moved out of a home I had so desperately moved into, into a newly married couple's pmq

-Finding appliances and getting ready to move into pmq on April 30th, 2010! 6 Days!

-BEEN POSITIVE, which I think is my biggest accomplishment.

-Booked a trip to Jamaica for the beau and I

This is one of those pinnacle times in my life where I am truly proud of myself. I feel great about what I am doing in my life. Sure there are speedbumps, but they are just bumps. Not giant craters in the road. I feel content. When my beau gets home I shall reach a new stage of happiness.

Cloud 10.

Goonight Bloggers, I love you.

Tmo

Sigh. I don't usually have days lately where I sit and do nothing. Today I worked from 8 til 12:30, then...nothing. I did absolutely nothing all day. Scratch that, I called to get house insurance, then did nothing all day. It's odd because I didn't like it, which I usually love to sit and do nothing. Lately I'm anxious, I have a lot to do so I shouldn't of just sat and did nothing. Barrrrrg. Also, I'll tell you a secret...I cried today. I couldn't tell you the last time I cried. My boyfriend's in Afghanistan and I can't tell you the last time I've cried, I have got to be the weirdest person I know. I just don't let myself. I'm too busy to cry. I have a headache too and I feel sick, I should really go to bed.

Ohohohoh! First - I recently went to a Hedley concert and visited my bff in Halifax! It was an amazing weekend and definitely something I needed! I bought the dress I think I'm going to wear when Mr. M comes home, which is incredibly soon! I bought a print of a painting of the Harbour for our bathroom too!

PMQ in 8 days! I am so excited, and I wasn't too stressed until today. I am having trouble finding a fridge and a stove, I'm not super worried yet though. I will survive, I've made it this far.

My mom recently wrote me a letter...it sort of scared me I guess. She talks about money issues

and how I need to be independant. How she's worried about what happened last time Mr. M and I moved in together...we broke up, but got back together a month later. It's different this time though, we are older, wiser, more mature in our arguments. Everyone fights about money, it's how you go about the fighting that matters. Ug. I need sleep.

This was a lot of complaining, I am sorry. I need sleep and a good day tomorrow then I'll give this blog a happy post.

My friend RoRo recently posted a countdown post. I happen to be an uber fan of countdowns right now, I was tentivly counting down before, but now I have so many! An excert from a message to Mr. Miller:

"Love you!!! 9 days till 3 years! :)

18 days till I'm a certified diver!!!!!!

23 days till pmq!!!!!!!!!!

47ish days till you see my pretty face!!!!!!!!!!"

I have many more though. I am so busy. Here is my timeline:

This weekend - Ball

16th to 18th - Hedley Concert in Hali!

24th to 23rd - Checkout Dive weekend in Hali.

30th to 1st - PMQ bungalo!!! MOVING ON UP!

8th & 9th of May - Jo's place/Moncton to outlet stores?

15th May - Shoot (modeling)

22nd & 23rd - last weekend before he's home/Jo's/ getting pmq home-e!
 AND for all the rest of April Tuesday and Thursday are dive classes, I also need to pack, go to gym, work, and find appliances! Oh my goodness. Hahahaha! I AM busy. It's good though!

I had a wonderful Easter, hope you did too!\More laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Love to you Bloggers,

Tmo

She’s as hard as ACDC, she gets my thunder struck

I love this song right now. That is all.

my night owl-ness is baaaaaaAAAaack.
love you all,
Tmo

Clearly Someone Hates Me

Mr. M has been back in Afghanistan less that two weeks, therefore, the truck started making a funny noise. A non-ignorable type noise. Alright, can't be terrible, right? I took it to Canadian Tire, two problems: Wheel bearring & right acxle = 580$ Fine. Wait, Miss, there is a possibility we could take this apart then have a third problem. Ok. I thought that would bring it up to maybe 1000$. I was very wrong. 2400$ WHAT!? FML. So, the two first problems are fixed. The third my Mom's boyfriend is going to Canadian Tire in the morning to check on, since he's a mechanic. Bah. I hate being without a vehicle. This is why someone hates me.

I believe things come in threes...so, the day Mr. M left the police 'kindly' told us we could not take the truck to the airport since it had to be registered and safetyed, all from parking on the side of the road... while we visited friends... an hour before he left.. on boxing day. I mean come on! Mr. M ended up calling my Mom and her bf to come get me since I was supposed to take he truck home for Christmas and I was literally having an anxiety attack and could not talk at that moment. He took a cab to the airport and I sat in the driveway, in the truck. 45 minutes later I was rescued, but not before they mistakenly drove to the airport thinking I was there. They got to say goodbye to him though, that's good. The second thing is the truck nonsense. I'm hoping the third thing s something like me stubbing my toe or something, I can't handle anything bigger right now.

I am almost moved. I have a lot of clothes. You would think I would be an excellent mover, this is the 5th time I'm moving in a year. Four and a half more months till I'm in a more permanent situation, yayyyyyyy!

On a very positive note - I have some news! I received a glamorous blog award from wonderful m. over at - no hometown. Thanks so much. I too am going to try and come out of blog hiding also. Give me time, ha ha.

I also finished the 1st season of Gossip Girl. I have no idea why I love it so much! Don't judge me, please?

Bedtime - I need some beauty sleep.

Tjayne

Goodbye 2009, Hellooooo 2010!

It's so very odd to me that right now it's 2010. It always seemed like a far away dream, at the time Mr. M deployed, that January 2010 would even come. Yet, it's now 12:47 am, Saturday, January 2nd. Life never ceases to amaze me. I now have to get through January, February, March, April - then May 1st I'll be able to move into the cute little bungalow pmq dreamhouse. *sigh* He'll then be home sometime around the very middle of May! Four point five months more of this crazy waiting game I landed in until I get to cash in my prize of my hunny being home.

Awhile ago I wrote this list of things I wanted to accomplish while Mr. M was gone. I have, in 2 months, done all of that. So my current goal is to just keep doing what I've been doing, because it seems to be working well for me.

Blog Interrupted By:

MILITARY GIRLFRIEND RANT

I WANT A HUG

I'm having a moment, sorry. It's harder this time around, him leaving again. He was home for his HLTA for 20 days after being gone for 2 months and letting him go again was just the worst feeling ever. He's already been gone a week...I need my routine back. There are also scary grinding noises that the truck has been making over the past two days. I'm taking it to get looked at tomorrow. Please let nothing else go wrong.

Also, 3 days ago, 4 canadian soldiers died. May they rest in peace.

Sorry for that - I'm done now.

THE END

In happy news I found a dress I had to strongly resisted the urge to get - Etsy is getting to me.

VintageFrocksOfFancy

It's soooo loverly.

Loverly. Do you know what that wonderful word is from? I got it for Christmas to add to my collection! It's my new fav Audrey movie.

I need sleeeeeeep. I will write soon. I'm planning on doing a post like my dear friend Plaid Guru seen here. So watch for that!

Love to you all.

TJayne.

Dreams of Part-time Housewife Life

I have a dream of making cookies and dinners all the while dressed in an LBD (little black dress) wearing a pink apron. Anyone who knows me would comment on the fact that I can't cook and don't own an apron, let alone a pink one. Well, Here is what I have to say to that! I now own a pink apron and got a cookbook called "Anyone Can Cook" By GoodHousekeping. ;) For Early Christmas last weekend with Mom and Wayne, Nathan and I got a few presents, (I'll post pictures of mine in January) and 2 of mine happen to be those mentioned above. The pink apron actually belonged to my Gram who acquired it from a German War Bride. It's all hand embroidered and it's just beautiful. I would love to learn more of the story behind it and the life it had before me. I won't be cooking with it on, but it'll be a geat hostess apron. Also, the perfect accessory to an LBD when my Hubby comes home from work...when we have our own place...in May. I have awhile to train myself.

This was random.

Love,

TJayne

I'm getting sick.

So this is going to be quick, because I need my beauty rest. So these are just the very random thoughts I had today while internet browsing...

I have begun to really obsess about Tumblr and stumbled upon this site: http://fuckyeahfacecharacters.tumblr.com/ which is amazing - excuse the language. :) I found a cinderella picture that makes me smile:

*Sigh* So magical, it makes my heart happy.

That, in turn, got me thinking about wedding dresses. I had recently found out they actually have wedding dresses designed around the very princesses I grew up with like Ariel, Jasmine, Cinderella, Snow White and Belle. The designer is Kirstie Kelly and her Collections can be viewed here. The one I fell in love with was from the Cinderella line which is funny, because I've always been more of an Ariel fan myself. The dress is this:

Then I began looking up wedding dresses inspired by Audrey Hepburn who I aspire to be like everyday. I found a designer who does fabulous mod inspired wedding dresses. Her name is Rosa Clara and her collection can be viewed here. I loved them all but I fell in love/awe with this one the most:

I have no reason to look at wedding dresses, if you don't know me, I just like looking at them. They make me happy. So there.

I need sleep.

Oh yeah, I'm moving again, in January, more on this later.

Love to you.

TJayne

Another 2 weeks go by...

...I'm sorry. I have a good excuse though. HLTA (His break from Afghanistan) finally came.

He arrived at the airport at 5 pm. His Mom and 2, of his 3, brothers were there with me. It was really really weird to see him just walk off an airplane after all this cazyness, ha ha. After a quick stop at Tims we headed to Moncton where we ate at The Pumphouse. His Mom and brothers left and Nathan and I headed to our little Jacuzzi suite I had booked a few days earlier. We had 3 days and 2 nights in Moncton all to ourselves. We did a lot of shopping for Christmas presents and he bought me this sweet pair of D&G sunglasses, which is a big deal for me because I've never owned anything over 15$ for sunglasses before!

Nathan and I then finished the day at the Yamaha store in Moncton and where we were looking at all the pretty bikes, when we came upon a little Yamaha YZ85 2 Stroke 2007/08 (Can't remember year) and I sat on it and it was just perfect. Mr. M then proclaimed he was going to buy it for me because it was a good deal and I've always wanted to learn so why not just get my own? I rolled my eyes thinking he was being silly, but no, he was not. After much of me no-ing him, and him telling me he was at least going to talk to someone about it he did. Then he proceeded to make a down-payment on it and we went to pick it up the next day. I am now the proud new owner of a dirtbike and I am VERY excited for the summer.

We went to my Mom and her Boyfriend's place for the weekend and had  little Christmas for Mr. M and I, since we'll be with his family this year for real christmas. Mr. M and I recieved a Breadmaker! We were very excited and only 5 months till it goes in our new little PMQ. Which I am now legally able to get into before he comes home! Whoop!
I spent so much time commenting it is now very late, and I am very tired. Mr. M left today for his home which I'll be heading to on Saurday. Just have to get through this workweek. Without a vehicle, that he took, blah. Here's hoping time goes fast.

Love to you bloggers.

TJayne

I'm Tired & Wide Awake

It's 1:30, I'm in bed, I don't want to sleep. I'm emotionally doing really good with this whole deployment thing, but I have picked up some very odd behaviours...
 - My night-owlness has hit me with a vengeance.
 - I am either too active in scheduling my time with people or I sit at home and sit with my laptop & TV.
 - Today I played a total of 5.5 hours of Fable II - an x-box 360 game I'm in love with.
 - I have severly good intentions to do things like scrapbook & work out but by the end of the day I have failed miserably.
It is now 2:30 am and I need sleep. a few keys were not working on my keyboard and I quite literally just sat here for 35 minutes fixing them - another (stupid) odd behaviour. I think haf my common sense left with Mr. M.
I need sleep - fun things happening tomorrow...
He he he.
Night.
Ps. Bought New Moon Soundtrack! Eeeeeeeee, I'm in Love.