NEED SLUMBER

He comes home in 24 FRIGGEN HOURS!

This is totally me right now.
(At least it would be if I were in an empty field of dandilions right now, oh...and I looked like her.)

I kicked tour's ass. I rock. I am strong. I am ... Wonderwoman.

(Well, kind of...in spirit. I sadly have no super powers. Except for my power of awesomeness, no big.)

BEDTIME.

Love,

Tmo

6 DAYS!

6 DAYS

Till my hunny comes home from Deployment!

Like OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS, this is almost overrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I am happy. excited. in love. anxious. impatient. thankful. stressed.

So many complicated feelings, but first and foremost - Excited and Happy! (Of course)

I have 38 hours this week at work and, as I usually only have 25, I am stressed about getting this place organized of my things before he comes home and needs to move his stuff in from his Mom's, where its stored. My mommy is coming this Friday night till Saturday afternoon to help me organize, I think. Which would be great.

 It is currently almost 9:00pm, and I feel the need to watch Gilmore Girls and organize. Wish me luck.

T-hehehe.

Love to you all!

Tmo

Breath in, breath out, breath i - OMG a fridge!!

I have a happy post now. I own a fridge! Going to pick it up on the 30th, for 200.00, down from 250.00. I haggled damnit. I am wonderwoman. Also, Checkout Dive this weekend! Oh hell yes, I feel good about myself again. I will go from this:

To this:

I am pumped, to say the least.

Going wayyyy back to this post in which I write out a list of things I want to accomplish while he is gone. Here it is -

The Deployment List

-Excersise, feel good about my body again *Check, getting back into it in May fulltime.

-Get back into scrapbooking * Only a little, there is no room in people's places, I feel in the way when I do.

-Friends! * Check! Jo's on weekends, still staying in touch with others!

-Try rockclimbing! * Check, got my lead course in it.

-Journal -so I don't go crazy. * Check, almost every night.

-Focus on the light at the end of the tunnel - Him being back, living together, and this (hopefully)not happening again. * Check, it's s close.

-Care packages for my babe! * Only one :( I hope it gets to him on time!!

I did all that, but I also did:

-Scuba Dive Course

-Pole Dancing classes

-Made memories with friends

-Gained some close friendships, some best friends that I hope to surround myself with aways, in some way!

-Began part time modeling

-Went to see an old Bff and a concert of a band I love.

-2 Bacheloette parties!

-Visited my family

-Celebrated mine and Mr. M's 3 year anniversary of being boyfriend and girlfriend.

-Had many breakfasts at our local fav

-Spent many weekends with two of my favs

-Moved out of a home I had so desperately moved into, into a newly married couple's pmq

-Finding appliances and getting ready to move into pmq on April 30th, 2010! 6 Days!

-BEEN POSITIVE, which I think is my biggest accomplishment.

-Booked a trip to Jamaica for the beau and I

This is one of those pinnacle times in my life where I am truly proud of myself. I feel great about what I am doing in my life. Sure there are speedbumps, but they are just bumps. Not giant craters in the road. I feel content. When my beau gets home I shall reach a new stage of happiness.

Cloud 10.

Goonight Bloggers, I love you.

Tmo

Sigh. I don't usually have days lately where I sit and do nothing. Today I worked from 8 til 12:30, then...nothing. I did absolutely nothing all day. Scratch that, I called to get house insurance, then did nothing all day. It's odd because I didn't like it, which I usually love to sit and do nothing. Lately I'm anxious, I have a lot to do so I shouldn't of just sat and did nothing. Barrrrrg. Also, I'll tell you a secret...I cried today. I couldn't tell you the last time I cried. My boyfriend's in Afghanistan and I can't tell you the last time I've cried, I have got to be the weirdest person I know. I just don't let myself. I'm too busy to cry. I have a headache too and I feel sick, I should really go to bed.

Ohohohoh! First - I recently went to a Hedley concert and visited my bff in Halifax! It was an amazing weekend and definitely something I needed! I bought the dress I think I'm going to wear when Mr. M comes home, which is incredibly soon! I bought a print of a painting of the Harbour for our bathroom too!

PMQ in 8 days! I am so excited, and I wasn't too stressed until today. I am having trouble finding a fridge and a stove, I'm not super worried yet though. I will survive, I've made it this far.

My mom recently wrote me a letter...it sort of scared me I guess. She talks about money issues

and how I need to be independant. How she's worried about what happened last time Mr. M and I moved in together...we broke up, but got back together a month later. It's different this time though, we are older, wiser, more mature in our arguments. Everyone fights about money, it's how you go about the fighting that matters. Ug. I need sleep.

This was a lot of complaining, I am sorry. I need sleep and a good day tomorrow then I'll give this blog a happy post.

My friend RoRo recently posted a countdown post. I happen to be an uber fan of countdowns right now, I was tentivly counting down before, but now I have so many! An excert from a message to Mr. Miller:

"Love you!!! 9 days till 3 years! :)

18 days till I'm a certified diver!!!!!!

23 days till pmq!!!!!!!!!!

47ish days till you see my pretty face!!!!!!!!!!"

I have many more though. I am so busy. Here is my timeline:

This weekend - Ball

16th to 18th - Hedley Concert in Hali!

24th to 23rd - Checkout Dive weekend in Hali.

30th to 1st - PMQ bungalo!!! MOVING ON UP!

8th & 9th of May - Jo's place/Moncton to outlet stores?

15th May - Shoot (modeling)

22nd & 23rd - last weekend before he's home/Jo's/ getting pmq home-e!
 AND for all the rest of April Tuesday and Thursday are dive classes, I also need to pack, go to gym, work, and find appliances! Oh my goodness. Hahahaha! I AM busy. It's good though!

I had a wonderful Easter, hope you did too!\More laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Love to you Bloggers,

Tmo

O.m.g. My life is insane right now. I’m just busy, a good busy. So much has happened! I’ve been to two bachelorette parties, gone out on the town a few times, entered an alternate universe (good story, you’ll never hear it, don’t ask.), saw a good friend get married, made new friends, started Scuba diving classes, realized I had a really good friend, realized the people you hate sometimes just need a chance, locked in mine and Mr. M’s PMQ (little bungalow house) for April 30th, and really experienced life I guess. I was just SO busy doing all this stuff my little blog got pushed out of my mind. I wish I could write about all those experiences but I’m not. If you were there you know, and if you weren’t, why the hell not? ;)

Now, on to my present life. Scuba diving class tomorrow night! I’m pumped! The rest of the week is gym/work week then Freddy for the weekend, of course, to Jo’s for non-drunk weekend! Dooly’s is the worst we will do! I’m stating it here.

Guess what! 38 days till PMQ is mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, MINE!!!! Mr. M’s too, when he comes home…hehehe. Slightly excited.

Okay, that’s all I have, bedtime for this lady.

 

Goodnight - love, Tmo.

Goodbye 2009, Hellooooo 2010!

It's so very odd to me that right now it's 2010. It always seemed like a far away dream, at the time Mr. M deployed, that January 2010 would even come. Yet, it's now 12:47 am, Saturday, January 2nd. Life never ceases to amaze me. I now have to get through January, February, March, April - then May 1st I'll be able to move into the cute little bungalow pmq dreamhouse. *sigh* He'll then be home sometime around the very middle of May! Four point five months more of this crazy waiting game I landed in until I get to cash in my prize of my hunny being home.

Awhile ago I wrote this list of things I wanted to accomplish while Mr. M was gone. I have, in 2 months, done all of that. So my current goal is to just keep doing what I've been doing, because it seems to be working well for me.

Blog Interrupted By:

MILITARY GIRLFRIEND RANT

I WANT A HUG

I'm having a moment, sorry. It's harder this time around, him leaving again. He was home for his HLTA for 20 days after being gone for 2 months and letting him go again was just the worst feeling ever. He's already been gone a week...I need my routine back. There are also scary grinding noises that the truck has been making over the past two days. I'm taking it to get looked at tomorrow. Please let nothing else go wrong.

Also, 3 days ago, 4 canadian soldiers died. May they rest in peace.

Sorry for that - I'm done now.

THE END

In happy news I found a dress I had to strongly resisted the urge to get - Etsy is getting to me.

VintageFrocksOfFancy

It's soooo loverly.

Loverly. Do you know what that wonderful word is from? I got it for Christmas to add to my collection! It's my new fav Audrey movie.

I need sleeeeeeep. I will write soon. I'm planning on doing a post like my dear friend Plaid Guru seen here. So watch for that!

Love to you all.

TJayne.

5 Days

I can't even ignore the countdown anymore, it's right there, and anyone that knows simple math could figure it out. When I'm not with him I'm fine, but when I am, it takes two seconds for an emotion to turn on and off. It's getting hard to determine which feelings are of normal cause and which are Afghanistan caused.

That's all for now.